I really want to take this holiday to lose as much weigh as possible however things happened in the opposite as I'd planned.
I had been indulging myself in food. Starting to lose control already! I couldn't control myself anymore. Yes, though i've been exercising almost everyday yet I feel that I'm getting fatter and fatter. Fml.
Why do people out there eat like 5 time of my diet and still remain as skinny as ever?! Some out there totally hit the jackpot. Not only they stay as slim as possible from all the excess calories intake, they got slim and seductive(lol) bodies like woahhhhh, madly hot! Gah, so much for losing weight. At the end of the year I guess I'll still be stuck at my fked up body. Totally sian-Ed.
Often when I'm feeling totally despair at the fact that I didn't have the bonus high metabolism(idk how to spell) rate, i'd find another alternative to cheer myself up. Yes, though I have to go through all the tortures of looking at /craving for yet not able to eat the food I like, hey, I can choose the type of body I want! I can choose how fat or slim I want ya know:)
Today, I went out with steffie. And we saw this disgustingly(sorry to say) skinny girl. At first sight, I thought she was really skinny cause I only saw her upper body and was super jealous. Then, I looked t her lower body. Gees, she is incredibly skinny! No. Skinny is not the word. Hmm, aneroxic(another word tht idk how to spell) ? Her legs are of th size of a primary school girl. No joke. It's really not a good sight. True enough, there are so Many out there who really had a hard time trying to gain weight(fking jealous). An example is my sister's friend. She, being super skinny eat like super lots of snacks carbohydrates fats glucose yet she still didn't gain weight. Being uber pekchek and determined, she tried eating Macdonals for 1 month continuously. Yes, it's very bad for health and she managed to gain 1 kg. Wth. I guess if it's me.. I can't even fit into my school uni Liao Lo. But after that 1 month of macdonals, she quitted and her weight dropped immediately. Imagine how sad she was.
So at the end of the day, I should always be constantly reminding myself that there's always 2 side of everything. A positive one and a negative one. To live in joy or worries all falls on how you think, what you choose to believe in. Therefore, I think I still have to go on a diet until I reached my ideal weight :) I don't wanna torture myself or the entire life man!