i've got so many things to learn.



found myself stalking his ex almost everyday, well its not like there's much to stalk about her.
idk if just by looking at her updated profile pictures can be considered as stalking, but thats what i've been doing. She's just so pretty and skinny it makes me feel so inferior which lowered my self-esteem. sigh, i'm like an ugly duckling beside her.

One thing more thing, apparently i've been stalking his twitter and there used to be some tweets with pictures of his ex and him. Got no idea why i kept looking at the pictures to make myself more disheartened. Yesterday i couldnt find anymore of these pictures on his account. I wonder why..

I'm like a greedy bitch. It seems like I'm crave desperately for his attention. I know that's ridiculous, I know i shouldnt have expected much but I just can't control myself. I dont know how long more do i have to wait, it seems to be getting nowhere. It has only been less than a month and I'm running out of patience.